the mind is relevant to function on the sole importance of thinking, yet my mind remains at a construct to understand. i am relevant to think of myself and of my body as seemingly being attached to something that encompasses a greater fraction of a single bodied entity. i feel as if the mind could breathe on its own accord. seemingly, i feel detached from mind at times, and only attached to body. my mind fuses itself to body, and then my find pulls away from body. at times when i am thinking, or, when my mind is not thinking. significantly implying that i, yes i, am seperate from mind, and that mind may seemingly be something entirely different. when the seperate i is thinking, it has problems to conceive the fact that the i is alive and that it has limbs that enable it to move and signals that are sent to and from the brain to render it to move. this i, feels impossibility at such feats and cannot acquire the powerful knowledge that lay outside of its faculties to understand and reason as so. the i, away from mind lies at the bottom of a well, while the mind lie outside in the breeze of winds that flap overhead and touch faces on streets, the same faces that have their own i, and their own mind. are all of the i's and minds seperate from one another? i cannot fathom this possibility...


this thought entailing itself, i want to begin work on a short story, the character is irrelevant, but would find himself caught in a woman's orgasm. the orgasm, like a flowing stream would flow to its destination point. i suppose the entirety of the story would be the character's mental development while inside the vagina of a woman. how would he function differently and would he understand a woman differently then before? if he were outside of the vagina, he would see the woman from another perspective, one that he conceives is made up of bodily want and bodily attraction. one that is prominent with the sex drive. but if he were in a whirpool of a woman's orgasm, completely inside of her, how would he then picture the woman? his mind would delve deeper into himself, and i suppose, he would seperate from his i, and he would focus on his mind. how did he find himself inside an orgasm? how did he find himself inside a woman? this is just a thought of something that has plagued me for a long time. how would he react when he is spewed out of a woman's orgasm or how would he react if he remained inside of the woman permenantly?
the man's orgasm a quick thing, a response of sexual enjoyment, it happens and it is vomited out. it feels good yes, but it is quick. but a woman's orgasm takes long strides to work at, it cooks, it churns, a process like fermentation. it is a process of slowly moving work and churning particles just right til they find themselves at the exact spot, the exact tip where the brink of chaos and unity ensues. the starting point of the woman's orgasm is peace, whereas the ending point of the orgasm is chaos. peace merges with chaos, order merges with anarchy, and the cosmos swirl with the ideas of a cosmic disaster or a big bang theory. yes, the woman's orgasm is the big bang theory and all matter was spewed from it. the man's orgasm is the sewer where temporary waste is stored and where short bursts of wonderment are collected. but the vastness of space lies in the orgasm of a woman.
the i cannot find unity, only the mind can. a mind with an orgasm is the most beautiful and revitalizing process of nature, for it sparks order and creation....